How Still my Love by Diane Marina

How Still my Love by Diane Marina is one of those lesbian romances that, once you start reading, you can’t stop. Maybe because the way she writes, maybe because of her more than believable characters, maybe because the story is sweet and real, as the main character.

Beth is a woman who knows a couple of things for sure. First, her job is her life; second, she gets all the love she needs from Laurel and her family and doesn’t need anybody else in her life to be happy. After having a really bad experience with her last partner, she’s decided to not commit the same mistake a second time, falling in love and, that way, being vulnerable. But the experience that really marked Beth is the one she had with her parents, something you will discover soon and that explains the choices she makes and the way she behaves.
The problem for Beth is, even though she knows that she doesn’t want to get involved with anyone, destiny – also called Laurel – has other plans and soon the poor woman will see herself in a blind date with a woman who makes her feel more that she’d want.
There are a lot of things that I liked about How Still my Love. First, the story told in Beth’s POV makes you live with her what’s she’s going through, her emotions, her fears, her inability of speaking with Toni because she doesn’t want to upset her or pronounce the words that can hurt both of them.
Another great detail was Laurel. Been as alone as Beth is, having had so little love in her life, she needs someone to help her and love her deeply. Laurel is more than a friend, at some moments is almost her mother, and even if she doesn’t agree with what Beth does or doesn’t do, she is there, supporting her as any person that says she loves you should.

Then, there is the drama. It was a very long time since I cried with a book and this did it to me because the story has heartbreaking moments. You feel Beth’s loneliness and how the consequences of her actions hurt her so deeply that the effects of her sorrow show in her body. Because you get to understand her, thanks to Diane Marina’s wonderful description and writing, you care for her, you feel for her and you come to realize how horrid is for a person like her, that’s suffered so much, losing Toni and all she represents in Beth’s life. But then you understand her inability of talking about certain things and how she lets situations and problems grow until the point that is impossible to stop it.

The only “but” I could add is that we don’t get to know too much about Beth’s previous relationship. At the very beginning of the book I thought this was the trigger of Beth’s problems and aversion about being again in a relationship, but then it’s evident that her most deep scars are from what happened with her parents. If there is a sequel that explains more about this and gives us a glimpse of the lives of these fantastic characters, I won’t complain (wink).
Thanks Diane for your amazing stories and keep them coming!